Relationship

James Bond once says, "Because once you've tasted it, it's all you want to drink". Apparently it holds true not only for drinks, but for relationship as well. Some people I know never stay single for more than six months (some even less) once they tasted the bittersweet flavor of relationship. Some of my friends even aggressively look for "The One" (which I prefer to call "The Next One" instead). Nothing is wrong with wanting a relationship. Every girl desires it. I do as well. Even Eve got her Adam. So it is certainly OK to have a relationship.
The problem lies behind the meaning of the relationship itself. Why do you want this relationship you are currently pursuing? What do you expect from this relationship, from the other partner? I often find different reasons for pursuing a relationship, including social status (what is it with being single = unattractive), companionship (can't cope with loneliness), desires, fun, age (in my culture, people are getting annoying with questions regarding your future spouse when you reach a certain age) , etc.
I am no expert in relationship since mine failed (and I believe it was because I was not ready and felt overwhelmed with it. However, I also believe that the breakup I had was a breakthrough for both of us. He is now in a much better state, and I learned my mistakes.)
I now believe that the main purpose is to glorify God, to become more like Him. The Bible has given clear instructions on godly characteristics (1 Timothy 5:8, 1 Peter 3:7, etc). We need to be personally ready with these godly qualities before we seek a godly person. We also need to remember that the romantic feeling should be there (if not, do you really think you want to be with the same person for lifetime? I don't), but it should not lead our thoughts. Instead, we need to let God in our relationship. One thing I found is that if you pour out your love to your partner out of desires only, soon you'll get tired of it. You need to pour out love to your partner based on God's everlasting love.

Providence of God

What a marvelous God we have!
Though we might drift away even though we have tried to be close to Him, He never leaves us. Although many hardships come before us, His Providence shows that He is sovereign. What we see as problems at the moment is nothing compared to the Plan He has prepared for us. Believe in His Providence even though we are hurting at the moment. We never know what He has in store for us!

Longing for...

I'm longing for...
A group...
A community...
People who grow together in Christ...
Brothers and sisters in Christ...
Like the one I used to have...

I'm restless...
I keep thinking...
Of the ol' good times...
Knowing it can bring me...
Only memories...
Good memories...

I'm imagining...
An awakening...
A spiritual young generation...
Young adults who want to be like Christ...
Friends and partners who want to be like Christ...
Like the one I always pray for...

But, it's now only in my tangled mind...
The question is...
Where?
How?
With whom?